Master's Pet

Belonging pt 2

staticangel — Sat, 24 Apr 2010 05:16:09 +0000

Still not very sure where i fit into everything… but there’s no rush on finding out either…. everything’s just been left at a point where i have so many questions…and things i would need clarified for me to move forward… Master mentioned that his fiance might be interested in other females — but im unsure as to what extent, what type of girls she would like if she were into other girls, and how a relationship dynamic where having two masters would even work… if she were even comfortable with the idea, i think it would take a lot of careful planning to make sure no one was upset by the arrangement, but i have yet to hear back from Master if he has dropped the question in a casual way of whether or not she would be comfortable with having a slave…

funnily enough, my friend had mentioned that her and her fiance wanted me for some “group fun” but i think she’s only really comfortable in making out with other women and just wants to tease her fiance by playing with me in front of him…im not really looking to be merely some sort of toy though. i think it should be acknowledged that even as a slave i have important needs to be fulfilled, but i could also, as Master said, fill a lot of the voids in the lives others and do things that others don’t want to do– which would add to the common happiness… but even if she says no, then that leaves us at an impasse where things are just very unsure…. (im not trying to stress Master out by having these thoughts)… merely thinking about how everything may work out…. its very interesting…

Belonging

staticangel — Wed, 21 Apr 2010 18:35:23 +0000

It’s been a considerable while since ive kept a blog entry. a lot of new developments have taken shape since my last words to Master almost a year ago. but i think the main thing that’s lead me to contacting Him again is that i don’t feel like there’s anyone else who would be able to treat me the way i want to be treated (which was actually what i meant to say when i talked with Master yesterday– not that He understood me better than anyone else, but that he treated me the way that i wanted to be treated under his control and i dont really feel attracted to anyone else’s relationship dynamic). Unfortunately, for me, these words and even thoughts came too late… i should have perpetuated the feelings i had for Him last year instead of getting lost in my own hopelessness. Let that be a lesson to all you slaves in long distance relationships–especially ones built on deep feelings for your Master. i went adrift after i began to think that we might never be together–due to some pretty hard circumstances on both ends– mainly, for me, monetary issues… because there was no telling when i would have enough money to be with Master when or if it became possible. these feelings for Him seemed to have crept back into my thoughts and are gaining more and more momentum… but as i had said… they had come too late… Master is in a deep relationship with someone else and having a child… and so a person of high moral conscience would let the situation alone…(which should be even more resounding for me because i am a single parent and know what adultery can do to relationships) but i can’t seem to shake the feelings ive had for him… ive gotten over people in the past, but He’s not someone you just get over….

He gave me an out… saying that he would still be interested in pursuing what we had in the background of his current relationship… but this whole idea is surrounded by immorality– and i couldn’t help but think– “what if i was the current and He was telling this to someone else?” — and so in this way, i am very sympathetic with his current relationship. He did however say that his fiance is also bisexual, so the thought instantly crept into my mind that we could just all date each other, but im sure this is a total impossibility and there would probably be issues arising, especially given our different histories–mainly that im not sure how she would feel about our M/s dynamic, so the thought left my mind as quickly as it had entered. So this just leaves me with two real options– wait around for the situation to change and continue to feed each other’s passions, however immoral, or let go. i tend to associate the first choice with becoming his mistress (or slave mistress rather), but what i would then be compensated with is differentiated from what is normally saught in an adulterous relationship. i do not seek his support in this interim where we are not completely together, i seek to merely provide this alternative choice for Him in his life path, if He should choose to take it one day and to offer myself to Him without expecting anything in return– this is what i believe to be the true test of our love now. if i do not win his love in the future then it was not meant to be, but that is only for him to decide. the idea of letting go of these feelings, at the current moment, does not seem to be possible, and so i will remain his faithful and loyal pet until He decides what he wants because i belong with Him.

Lost Pet

staticangel — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 05:00:05 +0000

Tonight ive gotten this revelation, like i keep making the same mistakes over and over again (and quite frankly im tired of how i think about things because i think in circles)…. i think these last few months… ive just had these overwhelming feelings of doubt, like i might not be good enough for Master…. but if i just go on assumptions alone there will always be a feeling of regret…. of never really knowing… and i had sort of an after thought, that i might not be the most perfect person but i do still love him…. but ultimately its Master’s decision if He even wants to try to make things work…. i imagine a lot has changed since the last blog, so i dont know if this is untimely… but its been on my mind….

i am Master’s slave

body mind and soul

i am His to do with as He pleases

i live to serve him

i live to please him

i am his in everything i do

everything i do is to please him

Goodnight my Love :*

Your very bad slave

Slave Rules

staticangel — Wed, 22 Apr 2009 03:01:37 +0000

Master and i put together a list of rules– im adding them to the blog because it will make them easier to update and easily accessible to us if they need to be discussed. Some of these rules are borrowed. im not the most original slave. ill probably add to this list in time. i agree with every rule and will execute every rule when i am collared. And hopefully by then i will know every rule.

Slave Rules

i must be both specific and explicit in my speech. i will give complete and accurate answers to each and every question that my Master asks of me. i am allowed no secrets from my Master. i will work hard to welcome this openness of body, mind and soul.

To receive pleasure i must earn it. i must always give thanks to my Master for all i am given immediately after receiving it, for such things are gifts or privileges granted to me by Him. This also includes any punishment and discipline that i may receive so that i may grow in bondage and serve him better.
i will not hesitate in my obedience to my Master and will respond quickly to all orders given.

i willingly discuss any issues i have with my Master that limits my trust. my goal is to trust my Master and know His concern for my total safety which includes my emotional, psychological, social, sexual, and physical health.
i will work hard to give my Master control and turn my will over to Him. i know this is my duty as His slave and i desire to serve and please Him by doing so.

When i am not in the presence of my Master and i have choices to make – i will perform them to the best of my abilities and within the boundaries and guidance He has established for me.

The opportunity to please my Master is very important to me. i will seek out opportunities to do so. my greatest felt satisfaction is realized when i know i have pleased my Master. There can be no greater pain or suffering i can feel than when my Master is not pleased with me. i will accept the guidance i will need to be put back on track so that i will be forgiven and once again be pleasing to Him.

i will learn all the positions my Master wants to teach me to the best of my abilities and when asked to i will display myself to him using them . i know that by using the slave positions i am enabling by Master to better manage and use his slave.

my entire sexual being now belongs to my Master. my Master is in complete charge of my sexual desires and i wish that He mold them in a way that is most pleasing to Him. my entire body is to be available for my Master’s use at all times.

i must never reach orgasm without explicit permission from my Master. My failure to receive permission before cumming will cause me to endure the punishment Master will put upon me. Such pleasure must be seen as a privilege. i am to undergo intense training so that i will learn to better serve and please my Master’s needs with my body and to reach orgasm when he commands it.

i will never seek to experience sexual or sensual pleasure without permission from my Master. i fully acknowledge that i no longer have ownership of my sexual being.

i must confess to my Master when i have disobeyed (intentional or not) so that He may decide if such violations require me to be disciplined and/or punished. i must accept whatever decisions He makes by thanking Him for His choice. if i am disciplined or punished, i must focus upon how sorry i am for not behaving in the way that i have been taught – for i have displayed an unacceptable act which is displeasing to Him. i must remember to thank my Master for my punishment.

i will endure whatever discipline or punishment my Master gives me so i can become a better slave for Him.

i will work on building up my tolerances to the level my Master needs me to have, being careful not to push myself further or faster than i am ready to endure for Him, so that i may be able to expand my limitations and increase my value to Him. i fully acknowledge and accept that my Master has the right to expand my limits as he wishes.
i shall never think of myself as a weak person for it takes a strong female to commit to the drive inside me, to serve, to obey and to please a Master. i must remember that how well i behave enlightens and empowers me to become even closer to who i am – a devoted slave, of good rapport to a Master who truly understands my needs in relationship to His own.
The needs of my Master must always come first before my own for they offer an opportunity to please Him.
i can make no demands or place limits on my Master’s authority. i can give Him no orders. i don’t control his time or who he chooses to give his attention too. i know that attempts, by me, to limit His power, control or status as a Master would lead to punishment.

my health is important to my Master. i will eat properly. i want to be healthy and of sound mind and body, free as possible of any personal limitations, when pleasing my Master. i can not refuse my Master’s decision that i seek medical attention, if so ordered. if placed on a diet by my Master, i will obey His decisions as to my method of weight loss and make routine reports to Him as to my progress. After losing the weight my Master requires, i will maintain the weight that pleases Him.

i will always listen with a strong interest in whatever my Master has to say during my training.

When told to perform a duty for my Master, i will do so without delay or question unless i do not understand the meaning of the order. i may seek clarification of any order from my Master. This is not to be interpreted as a means of arguing are disagreeing with my orders.
Any feeling of anger, mistrust, or other counter productive emotions will be expressed to my Master in order that He may find a way to correct these feelings. it is my duty to do so.

my body is for my Masters pleasure. i will learn that:
my body will be used as my Master wishes for His pleasure.
i will work hard to provide complete pleasure with my body. i will not restrict my Master’s view of me.
i worship my Master’s body.
my Master’s cum must never go to waste – i will swallow His cum as it is a gift an honor to receive it.

my legs, underarms and pussy must be kept completely shaved smooth and clean so that nothing of me is hidden from view. Unless otherwise given permission – my hair must be kept in a manner that is pleasing to my Master.
i may, at times, offer various parts of my body to my Master in hopes He will take pleasure in using them in whatever way He wishes. my only hope will be that my offering will please Him.
i must always remember how pleased my Master is when i think of myself as sexy and showing off my assets. my behavior must always display a sexual content however subtle. i am expected to learn how to feel and be happy. When i walk, run, sit, stand, kneel, reach out, speak, or listen – i will do so in a manner pleasing to my Master.
i am responsible for maintaining a current list of these rules and all other material provided for my training. i know that after training i am to maintain and study these rules that will be used as a basis to govern me over a long period. i am not expected to memorize these rules, however i am expected to study them, know them, and abide by them. Each rule may have more than one meaning, depending on the topic and i will know all meanings as provided by my Master. The final determination as to the meaning of each and every rule, regulation, guideline, punishment, and the contract will be determined by my Master. my Master is the supreme authority as to their meaning. i will yield to his authority.

i trust my Master.

i will ask my Master for permission to satisfy whatever need i have before acting on it.

my body and mind are the property of my Master.

i will not hesitate when responding to my Master. my focus is important to my growth.

i will thank my Master for the discipline and punishments i receive, specifying what i received and expressing the reason as to why i was given them.

i have no will of my own other than that which falls within the context of the rules i have selected and of that which is needed to pursue the ambitions i am allowed to seek out as according to the permissions i have received from my Master. i will report to Him my progress in such matters to receive His favor or His guidance in making whatever steps may be required to move ahead so that i am successful.

All my choices shall be based upon whether or not they will please my Master.

i shall wear the collar my Master gives me with pride for it signifies His ownership of me and my devotion to Him.
my head must be bowed down in the presence of my Master unless i am given permission to do so otherwise. i honor the position of my Master and it is important that i am not distracted in my submission to Him.

i must always wear revealing and sexy clothing of good taste around my Master unless given permission to do so otherwise. The clothing i wear will allow easy access to my body. The clothing will emphasize and often exaggerate my assets.

When i remove clothing from my body it must be folded neatly and placed in a small pile in front of me just ahead of my feet or my knees if i should be required to be in my kneeling position after unclothing myself, unless my master says it isn’t necessary.

Unless otherwise given permission – my hair must be kept up in a manner that is ravishing so that my shoulders and the nape of my neck are fully exposed – especially when i am naked. it is important to Master that i appear not just attractive, but alluring and desirable.

my body must be thoroughly washed and of a good aroma at all times, if even perfumed, but especially before serving my Master.

my submission is a natural inborn feeling, and at times a surging and powerful force inside me that only a respectable and knowledgeable Master can recognize, control and manage, for a He understands how my nature influences my behavior and how temptations to act outside of its drive can easily lead me astray and away from my primary focus: to please and to be found pleasing. He, too, manages and controls His Own natural state, sharing with me through a power exchange between us, bonding me tightly to Him, His needs with mine. my submission to such a Master allows for me to feel more aware and alive inside and out, bringing me to a feeling i cherish: belonging.

When Master feels i am ready and our relationship has progressed to a lifelong commitment, i shall be specially prepared to receive His unique and permanent mark of ownership upon my flesh, in a place of His choosing, whether it be a piercing, a tattoo or a branding. Thereafter, i shall become His property and slave in the most strict sense – completely His for as long as the relationship continues to be managed and controlled in the manner in which is beneficial to each of us and in accordance with our mutually shared natures.

Only in complete submission to my Master shall i realize the depth of the love i have for Him.

it is important for me to nourish my body and mind, and to exercise my body regularly, as permitted by my Master, to increase my physical strength, to keep my limbs as flexible as possible, and to maintain or improve my figure so i may be able to endure my Master’s use of me however intense and for however long a period is required by Him. i want to be of a healthy and sound mind and body, free as possible of any personal limitations, when pleasing my Master.

At the beginning and ending of the day i must recite my slave mantra.

At the beginning of my relationship with my Master i shall present to Him several names for Him to decide upon as to which one will be my slave name. i know that He does not have to choose any of them and that He can choose one of His own for me to be known by.

i will periodically examine my whole life and look for how it has changed as a result of my relationship to my Master. i will speak to my Master about those areas where there have been improvements and those areas where i feel uncomfortable, insecure, or unsure of what direction i should take, how i should behave, or how i can behave in a manner that is different than how i have been behaving in the past.

i want to suffer for my Master in ways that please Him and that are safe for me to do so.

i look forward to serving You in every way master. Your patient pet.

My Slave Mantra

staticangel — Wed, 22 Apr 2009 02:43:14 +0000

Master wants for me to memorize a slave mantra. i shall be very diligent on this because it is a constructive use of my time and it pleases him. the one he’s chosen is relatively simple, but perhaps with time it will change. The idea of a mantra is very useful because i can ingrain myself further with my newfound station in life as his slave.

my slave mantra:

i am my Master’s slave

body mind and soul

i am His to do with as he pleases

i live to serve him

i live to please him

i’m sure as time progresses verses will be added.

The Naming of the Slave

staticangel — Wed, 22 Apr 2009 00:17:52 +0000

Master wishes his slave to have a designated slave name.

he has chosen for it to be:

MIYU

Other Scripts: 美優, 美結, 実優 (Japanese)

From Japanese 美 (mi) “beautiful” or 実 (mi) “truth” combined with 優 (yu) “gentleness, superiority” or 結 (yu) “tie, bind”.

Slave Registration

staticangel — Tue, 21 Apr 2009 21:02:43 +0000

My slave number is: 619-440-850. I was able to get one from seekdiscipline.com. They also have a certificate that you can obtain with your slave number on it and a registration card. That might be good to have later on.

Countdown to the Reunion

staticangel — Mon, 20 Apr 2009 20:09:49 +0000

Day 1

i guess we’ll be counting up instead of down since i’m not really sure what the date of my reunion with my Master will be. im a bit of an impatient pet. i found some old photos today of Master the last time i saw him over a year and a half ago. They make me wish i could pounce him right now. As of today, if i did the math right– its been 552 days since i last saw him. i couldnt stay in Nevada at the time, but now i would do anything to be there again with him. ive come to realize he is exactly what i need in my life to make it whole. i dont think having a relationship to feel connected to someone is enough, and ive come to realize that in his absence from my life– i need the connection to be there to have a relationship with someone and we are connected on the deepest level… as Master and slave. He has a dominance about him that attracts me to him like a magnet and while i might seem like a strong person– potentially, even, of my own dominant quality– i think it takes equal strength to be able to fully submit. Master also has a patience and understanding about him that ive never been able to find in any other man. im extremely excited to experience life as his full-time slave. it’s extremely hard to be someone’s property and be so far away from them for such a long period of time, but at the same time it’s not so difficult because he is all i want and its simply a matter of time now before i can be his and have all i desire as his slave. of what i can remember of our non M/s time together– there was still that dominance there… he knew exactly how i liked to be fucked and he took such good care of me, but i think that in adapting the 24/7 lifestyle, i will be able to know what he wants and when he wants it or to learn that information to avoid being punished too harshly… i still need to be broken in, but ive fully accepted my role as his slave. i want whatever he wants. if Master is pleased, i am pleased. i think we’ll continue to count forward from this point, since the establishment of the blog is a major event. This blog serves as my connection to Master when i cannot be with him or talk to him, to let him know that he is in my every thought.